Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Decisions, Decisions.

I've been feeling really unhappy with my whole life situation recently.
I've been considering transferring schools.
I'm really unsure though.

For one thing, I don't want to choose the wrong school. The whole point of me leaving UNM would be to go to a school that has a stronger Education program, but I have have tons of other factors to consider. I'm also not sure if it's worth it, just to be a teacher. On one hand, I really want to be a strong, beneficial teacher, and I don't think I'll be able to accomplish that at UNM, but on the other hand, maybe the school doesn't matter as much as my motivation.

I also am worried about being able to handle a "real" school. I went to public schools in NM, which are notoriously bad. Maybe it would be best for me to stay at UNM, where at least I know I'm properly trained to handle the course work.

Of course paying for all of this is a worry too, but I'm more than willing to figure that out however I have to.

I'm stressed. I thought I had it pretty much figured out earlier, but then something happened that made me less sure, and now I'm just in a flaily, confused, angsty state.
I wish I had figured all this out BEFORE I started at a school.

You guys thought I was kidding about the post its?
There's my pro and con lists.

Maybe I'll just drop out and be a professional organizer.